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Post by River Tam on Aug 11, 2009 1:40:01 GMT -5
River was up and about the ship, she was wandering almost in a daze. She didn't know how to tell anyone what happened at the academy. She hated thinking about it she didn't want Simon to know about it. She didn't want Simon to know what they did to her, they didn't want Simon to find out that the Alliance took her innocence, took everything that made her her and broke it into a million pieces.
River was on the platform thing that the doctors at the academy put all of the people on, she was just sitting there and let them stick needles into her head and just mess with her head. she was screaming loudly as the people were messing with her head. She was just laying there as they strapped onto the table as they asked her questions and things like that as they were poking and proding in her brain. She was watching them as they did the things to her and then the next thing she knew her world would go dark and she'd be dreaming.
River came out of her memory with a slight scream. She didn't know what else to do. She hoped, prayed, not to have anyone hear her. She did not enjoy talking to people about what happened, she didn't think that people needed to know what she did. she was just sitting there her knees against her chest and her chin was on her knees. She didn't know what else to do with things like that.
She sat there running equations through her head. Math was easy for her, equations were easy for her less hassle than having nightmares about the academy less traumatizing math didn't traumatize her. She hadn't harmed anyone before going to the academy she'd never hurt anyone. Sure played funny little mind games with her brother but it was never dangerous.
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Post by Jayne Cobb on Aug 11, 2009 2:27:24 GMT -5
Jayne had been sitting on his bed, arranging his guns, an activity he enjoyed and often did, when he was overcome with a powerful need to eat. He climbed up out of his room and made his way into the dining room/kitchen area, not paying a whole lot of attention to what was going on around him, grabbing random food items from the cupboards and stuffing them in his mouth until he was full.
There was a small scream from behind him and he spun around, half way through pouring himself a drink, to find River curled up in the corner of the room.
"Gorrammit girl," he muttered, finishing pouring his drink, moving over to the table and slamming his cup down before taking a seat. "Keep it down will ya? Some of us are trying to have a relaxin' evenin'"
He took a gulp of his drink and tried to ignore the girl... and failed miserably. He leaned forward on the table, resting his chin on his arms. "Okay, crazy, what's up?"
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Post by River Tam on Aug 11, 2009 2:44:44 GMT -5
River looked up at Jayne her eyes showed the fear that she felt, she didn’t know how to make that any clearer to Jayne. She knew he called her crazy but it was the truth, it was the truth. She knew it was the truth it had been the truth since she left that academy. She didn’t know how to make things feel any different she felt like her life before the academy was a dream of a dream.
River kept her knees up by her chest, and kept her head on her knees as Jayne actually addressed her. She knew that she didn’t want to talk about it though she never wanted to talk about it. She wasn’t the same girl she was before the academy at fourteen her life had been so much different than it was now. She was seventeen now and all sorts of things like that.
“It’s not relevant” said River
River looked at Jayne, any moron could see that she was scared, but no one would know why. She didn’t want to be drugged or anything like that. So she didn’t want Simon involved into this, it was too much trouble for her brother to get involved. Medicine was always involved with her brother now. She looked at Jayne and then just shrugged she did not want him to get Simon.
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Post by Jayne Cobb on Aug 11, 2009 3:12:22 GMT -5
Jayne could see the fear in the girl's eyes. Over the years he'd been become pretty good at recognising fear in other people. Apparently people found him frightening... who knew? The question was, what had she to be scared about? They'd figured out the secret that made her crazy... or something. And the Alliance would probably be off their backs for a little bit. So really, things were looking up.
“It’s not relevant”
Jayne shrugged. He wasn't much of a talker anyway. He slid back from the table and crossed his arms over his chest, watching River closely. She irked him, some, that was for sure. He was pretty sure it had something to do with her cutting him open... and going even crazier than usual and beating him up. But she was still just a little girl... a little girl with a moonbrain... he sighed but didn't take his eyes off her... just in case she decided to go monkey shit again.
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Post by River Tam on Aug 11, 2009 3:42:19 GMT -5
River looked at jayne not sure what to say to him about what was going on with her, she didn’t know what people would think about people. She just sighed and then looked at Jayne. River looked at him and then moved into the kitchen to grab her self something else to eat. She needed to eat something that was for sure, she went looking around the kitchen she could see her families kitchen in Osiris, how they weren’t allowed to cook in at all. There were people to do that in their house in Osiris. River just looked at Jayne sort of there and not really.
River looked at Jayne not sure what to say to him, she didn’t really know Jayne she just looked at him. She knew more about him than the other people on the ship, she knew more about everyone on the ship then most people did. She was a psychic so she saw things that no one would ever know. She just looked at him, she knew he was obsessed with sex and guns, she knew how he was, but at the same time she didn’t actually know anything. She just looked at him and grabbed something to eat. She just grabbed something that semi resembled real food.
She didn’t know how else to react to things like that at the moment. She sat down across from Jayne and looked at him. She didn’t know if Jayne was going to look at her food and then at him. She didn’t know if he’d ask her any questions about anything but she didn’t really rightly care at a moment.
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Post by Jayne Cobb on Aug 11, 2009 3:57:07 GMT -5
Jayne turned his attention to the cup on the table as River stood up and ventured into the kitchen. He drank deeply before putting the cup back onto the table. As long as the girl didn't start unwrapping things again, everything would be fine. He looked back at her as she sat down across from him and frowned slightly as she looked at him. He had to wonder, if she was looking at him so intently, if she was trying to read him.
"Fei-fei de piyan stop looking at me like that," he muttered, glaring at her. "You don't wanna talk to me, fine, just don't be trying to get into my Gorram head."
He shook his head at her. "A man's mind is private, little girl, don't wanna be looking in there."
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Post by River Tam on Aug 11, 2009 4:23:48 GMT -5
“I’m not trying to get into your head, to be entirely, forthright and to modulate to you I am not trying to procure your thoughts, I am to obtain the opposite, I am trying to obtain quiescence from the populace of this ship” said River
She knew that Jayne probably didn’t understand half of the things she had just said, but she said them how she knew how to articulate sentences. She was very articulate and mature for most seventeen year old girls. She had been that way from a young age. She was looking at jayne still trying to accomplish the opposite of what she did so naturally. It was like breathing to her. She did allot of things as if it were breathing. Aside from actually eating River was pretty well interested in everything but eating.
River pushed her basically untouched food toward Jayne, she wasn’t the kind of person who ate allot. Jayne knew that she didn’t eat allot, Simon worried about her not eating, but River had been feeling something that was kind of disturbing and really kind of out there even for Serenity. She had been having that feeling for a long time and she didn’t know how to articulate it. She wanted to get that silence back into her head the silence she remembered from her child hood. She didn’t have that silence in her head anymore.
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Post by Jayne Cobb on Aug 11, 2009 4:31:54 GMT -5
“I’m not trying to get into your head, to be entirely, forthright and to modulate to you I am not trying to procure your thoughts, I am to obtain the opposite, I am trying to obtain quiescence from the populace of this ship”
Jayne stared at her. He hadn't even a micro clue of what she hust said. He'd gotten the bit about not trying to get into his head but the rest of it... she's lost him. "Right." he said, nodding. "Good then." Yes, pretending he knew what she was on about was a good plan.
He eyed the food she pushed towards him and looked at her for a moment. She never seemed to eat much, it probably wasn't healthy. But Jayne Cobb was never one to let food go to waste. His mother had raised him right. So he pulled the food closer and began to eat.
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Post by River Tam on Aug 11, 2009 4:46:24 GMT -5
"I do not want to be able to read people's thoughts" said River
She simplified it so that Jayne would be able to understand what she was saying. She didn't want to be reading peoples thoughs she didn't even want to know what was going on in people's pasts. she had been intuitive before but that wasn't like this it wasn't like she had the whole thought reading thing before.
River just let Jayne eat her food, she didn't really care, she took one or two bites of food before she'd give it to someone else. She was glad jayne hadn't say anything about it that was for sure.
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Post by Jayne Cobb on Aug 11, 2009 4:55:18 GMT -5
"I do not want to be able to read people's thoughts"
See, now why couldn't she have said that the first time? Jayne asked himself as he finished off her meal. It would have been a whole lot easier. He sighed, her not wanting to read minds never seemed to stop her from doing it. Although he wasn't an expert on brains and what not so he didn't know whether she should be able to control it or not.
"Ain't your brother trying to fix that?" Jayne said, mouth full of food. It wasn't that he particularly cared or nothing, he was just making polite conversation.
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Post by River Tam on Aug 11, 2009 5:12:36 GMT -5
River looked at Jayne, he didn't know that nothing Simon did or said helped. her body broke down whatever medications he gave her and she didn't know what else to do or say to him at the moment about that. Or how to say it to him that didn't make it sound like she didn't love her brother. She loved Simon he was her family but that was just it, she wasn't able to deal with his medicating her anymore. It wasn't helping her why couldn't he just see it.
"The medications ameliorate the botheration any longer" said River as she watched Jayne eat
She definitely wasn't eating anywhere near as much as she should, but that was something that the academy did to her, they stripped her of her appetite, it made it so she could go long periods of time on very little if no sustance from food, they did give her water on a regular basis, just food wasn't something she was entitled to having all the time there. River functioned quite fine without it though, she always did she didn't want to deal with the torture that would have ensued had she not done what the alliance said. River hadn't wanted to die, she never wanted to die, she mostly just wanted to get out of the academy.
"Simon is trying to fix me, not the problem, he wants his sister back the one before everything happened with the Academy, not me not the broken one" said River
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